So I arrive at my grad party. Its at a great ranch, so first thing I do when I walk in is I walk up to the girl I was targeting, saw she was wasted. So I told myself: If she's wasted, why not get wasted? So I open a 4loko and start drinking. Instant escalation goes on when she's with me, arm around shoulder, her leaning on me, etc. (I'm new with escalating, she kind of initiated it, I'm completely comfortable with escalation but don't know how to immediately escalate with a new girl I've met) anyway I see a friend of mine with not so much game hit on this girl, at this point I'm really drunk, but its okay because the entire party is drunk =D. So my friend explains how its his girl and she wants him, he told me to talk to the girl's friend and she confirmed. Now over here is where I did something I regretted. I accepted that confirmation and backed off, something that would depress me, yes DEPRESS ME, afterwards. So being depressed and drunk I decided to go smoke some weed (1st time
) and eventually my friend comes out of a room with a girl. The girl is lying down and we're both fucked up, I tell her to come smoke with me. I take her to my room and we both smoke, as soon as everybody leaves I close the door and we both started making out. We were in bed for 7 hours and I couldn't hit (she was begging me!) because of the alcoholic erectile dysfunction I was having. I fingered her a bunch of times and got her to moan and get wet (this happened like 8 times through the night). I was nice to the girl, because my friend was a hardcore asshole, like not even game asshole but a real douchebag. She would always compliment me on how I was so nice and I was naturally really open with her (something that pissed me off afterward). Anyway this girl was really good and passionate, I enjoyed what we did a lot. At 6 AM the girl leaves and she happens to be from out of town. Now here's my problem:1) I was a virgin so in her eyes I seemed lesser (at least it brought my own confidence down)
2) I kind of have some feelings for the girl even if she has none for me and I can't accept how its a 1 night thing
3) The girl is the dullest texter, with no personality on text.
4) I feel like I still have 0 game, because I wasn't able to successfully meet a girl, and escalate from there.
5) My homie hooked up with this girl so it makes me hooking up with her even more pathetic.
6) She left back to her regular town and she didn't want a day 2
I did have fun, but all of this depressed me even more since she was really good and turned me on. I also go to community college so there's no social aspect over there for me. So as a result of all this my standards went up because I don't like girls that don't give me the passion I desire. However my game isn't even at that level yet.