Guys, I am writing to all of you today to share my experience tonight, and to make a pledge. I'll make the pledge first and the rest will explain itself! The pledge is that, no more will I shy away from social contact, no more will I act timidly in the face of strangers and no more will I allow the "social standards/expectations" get the better of me! I will act with courage, confidence and moxie, and will not rest until I become an mPUA. This I pledge!
Now the actual field report. I posted my intro on this forum about 3 weeks ago, claiming that I would no longer "geek" over the PU material. However I did exactly that! I fretted my way through the past 3 weeks, stumbling through four of the style life challenges. Anxiety getting the most of me, I stopped on the challenge of approaching women to ask for clothes shop recommendations.
Tonight, on a last minute decision I went out with three of my friends to a pub and on to a club. I rehearsed my routine over and over in my head...trying to cling to the hope that fate would give me a chance, and that an opportunity would magically manifest itself. While I forgot the routine within 2.5 seconds of entering the pub, the one thing I did remember was to speak up and act like you're having lots of fun, but unfortunately this tactic did not work in the pub. Eventually we wound up in the club, one of the first few groups there and, since I had read material about dance floor game and since there was an empty dance floor, decided to try my luck on the dance floor. Unfortunately I fell doing a " tummy bump" with another guy and got embarrassed
. But I was persistent, doing the craziest/stupidest moves till I was sweating everywhere and at the end of my tether. Then, at about an hour before my dad was meant to pick me up, this girl comes over to me and says "are you single? Do you want to meet(kiss) my friend over there?" To which I replied " yeah I guess, but why don't we kiss?"(having read about boyfriend destroyer tactics, I was completely fearless in this kind of situation). She said her boyfriend wasn't here but was in the army and I replied " I won't tell if you won't!" to which she politely declined, and realizing she couldn't find her friend, she left! I was kicking myself at this stage because of the missed opportunity but true to her word, about half an hour before I had to leave, her friend showed up. She(HB6) and another friend(HB I Wasn't paying attention to her and have no idea of her rating ) danced with us while HB6 shot me a couple of coy glances, but I played it cool, dancing with my friends. After the fourth glance I motioned a sign for dancing with her and put my arms around her. After about 10 seconds of trying to talk over the music, I (drunkenly) went for the kiss and lo and behold she kissed back! We literally spent a half an hour kissing, while my dad tried to text me multiple times. Now like I said, she was a HB6 but she could suck the face off a rock. She nearly took my tongue off and my lower lip is double its normal size! During a break in the kissing we tried to talk but couldn't over the music so I thought "isolate to outside!!" but only got to the door..and while we made out again she kept asking me where I was from After 30 mins of face sucking and mauling I finally noticed one of my dad's texts and sadly had to leave, knowing that I might have lost my virginity because twice during the makeout she said " it's your turn to make a move", but alas it was not meant to be! So we left quite awkwardly with me saying I have to go and repeating this twice while more making-out ensued....until she finally got the message that I literally had to go! And so I write this report at 01:55 the next morning with a lower lip double its normal size and my tongue feeling as if someone tried to yank it out, buzzing from my first official K-Close and the second girl I've kissed-ever but knowing that I have the confidence to do it again, except sober this time!
