........I made a funnySo, my ex broke up a couple of weeks ago. We had an appointment yesterday. She still owed me some of my stuff she borrowed.
The time between this date I indulged myself with hours and hours of PUA stuff. I read a crap load of books and watched a ton of seminars from David D.
I couldn’t sleep the night before I saw her so I had a harder time to keep my game up and running. I listened to sexual communication during the 2 hour train ride. I looked amazingly hot btw. I opened some set during this trip too. All went well.
I arrived at the meeting place. She saw me and walked towards me. I was all alpha and shit en before I knew it she hugged me. I could have said so much when she hugged me, but it felt so nice that I just enjoyed it for a moment. I had some good conversation with her, I was leading her too in every way possible.
So we sat down somewhere. She told me about her driving lessons. So I stood up, put a chair next to her and told her to learn me what she learned in a playful way. I brought some cards with me and played some games and we talked and talked. I also did the whole ‘Remember the moment when you felt truly happy make this feeling grow inside of blablabla’ thing. She didn’t want to answer the ‘when did you truly felt happy’ question. So maybe because it was with me and she didn’t want to tell me that.
I took her hand into mine and I wanted to put all the happy feelings in our ring we bought together when we were together. She said she still was wearing it, but when I touched the ring I didn’t recognize it. She immediately said she didn’t want to wear it because she would scratch it. It kinda sucked a lot, because I was still wearing mine, lol. I was touching her everywhere, my hand behind her neck, holding her hairs.. She didn’t mind it at all. So I went in for the kiss……………….. she dodged it. And I don’t know why or how but I just started to cry and cry. She hugged me, told me she was sorry.
We had a drink but went separate ways after that.
So, I guess it’s over now and that I will not be seeing her again. I have no idea where the crap came from; maybe I just wasn’t ready enough.