my friend and i met in town yesterday just to chill, she brought a friend with her but i had no interest,i was quite stressed tbh like really depressed infact, my friend is okay with me being like this as she is bipolar and her friend is apparently in therapy to.
but anyway we went to the park as it was a nice day and we chilled, got some beer etc then my friend went off to go to the toilet, and still conveying no interest i said you 'You better go with her, she might need your help' in a quirky manor.
but no she stayed so i drummed coversation, perhapse it got a bit to personal i asked her about her depression etc she seemed pretty comfortable in the fact i had depression to open up to me.
anyway i suggested a drinking game as she was only on her first can and i was on my second. i suggested eye spy ( which FYI is a fucking killer drinking game) so ya know every time you guess and get it wrong you drink.
anyway she had like one and a bit cans barely anything but she was tipsy as hell so we sat in a mcdonalds for a bit to relax she was cuddling me etc, i didnt mindi gotta be honest conversation warmed me to her abit. anywho my freind suggested i walk her to the bus stop so i did she was staring at me etc being very flirty but as i wasnt sure a tested and when she said you know im ok you can go if you want, i said ok fine bye. and she was like no no stay, i also said "ya know youd be just my type if you were alittle taller' which got a good response.
we ended up kissing and her bus came and i said looks like your bus is here and she was like oh it is, i said do you want to go, and we batted that back and forth a bit, so i suggested walking to were i lived to go for a walk on by the lake, she was like okay blah blah
so we took another bus to my place started having sex all was going well, bear in mind this was my first time. i was biting her (not hard) but apparently i like biting and so did she, i went to penetrate her and all was good but as things went on, i lost my erection, the only other time this has happened was when i started my medication and i was testing for side effects. i just fingered her and did some oral had a lot of foreplay etc etc
we went at it for about an hour and 45 mins etc
she orgasm'd quite abit as the variouse stains on my bed would suggest.
anywho this is where shit goes pear shaped, its 10.45 at night, i suggested she stay over but she lives on the other side of the city and her mum was gonna kill her, fair enuff. i gave her one of my hoodys and i walked her to the bus stop, we missed the bus, so i suggested she come back to mine, but no she wanted to walk to town and meet her friends to go back to theres (i had no money for a cab btw yes i know dlv!) so i walked her to town, i mean someone just got murdered in my neighborhood so wasn't gonna let her walk alone.
i was saying we should do something on monday she told me when she was free blah blah blah i asked for her number, then i changed the subject and stopped her just to test her, then she re initiated me and said 'oh yeah my number'
so i walked her to town its about 1.30 in the morning, she constantly told me how gulilty she felt making me walk all that way, blah blah i kept saying okay ill go then, and she was like no stay.
there was alot of kino, holding hands and whatever else.
anywho i text her about midday todayish and said, "okay now my room is a mess!
you get home in the end? x" (i was explaining how messy my room was and she though it was quite tidy) any who she responded an hour later, saying ' Ha! sorry! yeah i met my friends in town and got back at half 3 havnt been home yet though! x' (note the ! i sense the need for emphasis, but what do i know)any who i didnt respond till about 2 hours later because i was tired and the lack of a question in her response wasnt promising, anywho i responded with ' Wtf! 3 pleas tel me you didnt play eye spy, because im sorry u r teribble at it x"
and now im playing the waiting game lol, at the very least i really want my hoodie back, aside from how furious i am about my medication stopping my erection, (which i will be seeing my doctor on monday for IM 18 FFS!) i wont be texting her again either at this rate, can i have some advice please?
one other thing
i recently got over a 2 year crush, like a really painful one, earlier in the week i asked here how she felt about me and it didnt go well, anyhow soon after, i felt so much better and i havnt though about her since.
on what i did right/wrong? and whether ive fucked this up? ^.^
thx