I'm 25 and have been in bed with 3 women but only had sex with one woman over three years ago (I was a rebound). After my latest epic failure with a woman, I decided enough was enough and have delved into red pill philosophy. Oh what a glorious world it is. It just feels so empowering to see beautiful women anywhere who I have no connection to and actually have a game plan to try to have sex with them. I've been going out the last couple days for the first time to do approaches. The first two times, I ended up just walking around malls, not doing a single approach, partly due to fear, part due to lack of good targets.

That changed today. After walking around a department store for almost 2 hours and foolishly passing on 3 excellent approach opportunities on beautiful women out of fear, I was literally yelling at myself in the car for being such a p**** after I left the store. I actually gave myself a mandate to not leave the store until I did an approach, which I broke, only making me more upset at my lack of balls.

So I go from the store to the gym and see a girl with a t-shirt I can comment on. I finally say "fuck it" in my head and just go for the approach. It was an incredible relief. I had an intense natural high for about 30 minutes after the fact. We had about a 4 minute conversation where she actually contributed and even threw out an IOI by asking my name. I was a little nervous and I gave away too much personal info too quickly in an effort to impress her and keep the conversation going, but I think it could have gone a lot worse for my first real cold approach. She left the free weight area almost immediately after our conversation and I didn't try to go for the number, but I couldn't have cared less. I finally got over the mental hurdle in my head that was preventing me from speaking in the presence of beautiful women.

Now of course, I can't help but have stronger sexual fantasies when I see young, beautiful women. I saw a girl today with gorgeous long, wavy hair that bounced as she walked, and all I could think about was how it would bounce while I f**** her. I need an outlet for this sexual energy other than masturbation and look forward to putting 100% into mastering this craft we call pickup.