So. I've been in this stuff for quite a while now and so many things have changed inside, and around me that I think it's about time to stop for a moment and think about what happened.
*THIS IS THE WHOLE STORY, IF YOU ARE NOT INTERESTED SKIP THIS PART*
Back to the very beginning, when I didn't even know about pick-up. I was the REAL chode. The one that people not only make fun of, but for any other communication, usually just avoid. I was needy, had attitude problems, and stinked like shit. Now as I matured I got over my attitude problems and started caring about my personal higiene more and thus people started interacting with me. But yet of course I was socially awkward and had no experience with girls what so ever. I had a sweet line of one-itises, one after another up until a point when I just had enough and gave up. I enjoyed my time with friends and everything was pretty okay with my life except for the girl thing. And that's when I found the hungarian community. 17 years of desperation and finally I found something that could help me. I started reading. And I read and read and read. I fell into the mistake of just reading. I regularly went out, but was not really concerned about opening chicks. It was not even AA I was just not really motivated...I still don't exactly know why, but I assume it had to do something with masturbating 2 times a day. When I stopped that I became horny. Badass horny. And I failed and failed and failed. At New Year's Eve, 2009/2010 I finally got a girl. It was a really nice girl, and a very good relationship, however it took me ages to bang her. Spent 8 months with her when finally she let me inside her(she was a virgin too at the age of 18...) I got experiences...Experiences at relationships, girls, and a little sex but later I found out that was not even close to REAL sex. It hurted her for the first two times and I needed to be so slow that I wasn't even near finishing. She couldn't use her hands properly and oral was out of her interest. I didn't mind however... it was lovely, sweet, and had its own beauty. When we got to different cities the relationship was screwed. We broke up, but I wasn't too upset about it. I'd already learned not to care that much at that time. Then university started. Parties, parties and more parties. I made out with several girls and managed to get a ONS but I had to find out that just isn't for me. 7 months without sex and exams coming near I started to get little annoyed. I had enough and decided to actually do something. I started a learning journal just like Daniel but that also didn't turn out to be too good for me. Then I just decided to call a girl I was kind of friends with. Not the friend zone type but rather just talk sometimes and joke around. We had a little romance back at the camp before the 1st semester but then both of us were in relationships so we decided not to create trouble for ourselves. By that time I called her however, both of us were single. I knew she was into me. When interacting with her I always noticed several IOIs but for some reason I didn't think about her as a potential target up until a point. Maybe it was because I found out how many common things we had, maybe just because I felt good around her, maybe both I don't know but my perspective on her changed. So I was playing captain obvious and called her to "watch a movie and drink something" She agreed(what a surprise) and we fucked. And we fucked hard. It blew away my previous experiences about "sex". The little playful thing that was just "good" turned into a wild, enormous pool of feelings of joy, freedom, and content. Yet we're living together enjoying our lives, having lots of sex and I noticed that I have changed. I wouldn't say I'm more alpha, or I'm more confident but instead just I'm more like ME. And that's exactly what I was looking for...
*END OF STORY NOW FOR THE SUMMARY PART*
-3 years ago I was a complete chode. Now I've got a girlfriend and have so much sex a week that back then I couldn't even imagine through a whole lifetime.
-I used to be depressive, weird, and I didn't respect myself at all. Now I'm positive, still weird lol
but I learned how to love myself and express this to others in a not arrogant way.-I used to be a social illiterate and now I'm aware of every happenning during social interactions in my life.
-I used to be seen as the creepy guy, best avoided. Now I've got some friends(I know many people but I'm well aware of whom I call "a FRIEND")
-I was not really addicted to computer games, but spent way too much time with them, because I had nothing better to do. Now I spend very little time on the computer compared to my other activities.
Guys. Don't you ever give up. I really was the chodiest of the chodes and I'm not saying I'm now a womanizer because I'm not. But I was working hard and got results and I'm now happy. I never was the greedy guy, that hasn't changed; I don't need a thousand women to sleep with me but I need that if I ever want one I know that soon enough I'm able to get her. Thanks for taking your time to read this and good luck to everyone on his journey!
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