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| Author: | cool dude [ Wed Apr 07, 2010 7:39 am ] |
| Post subject: | A part of the game I never expected |
I was getting to be the person I truly liked, and felt who I naturally was, then I moved to st pete. And over a short period of time, I felt myself become depressed, and less alpha with everyday going by. I thought, ok this is only a passing, and I will soon be back to normal, but I was wrong. I was back to being afc, I was back to step 1. For some reason that I do not know, but it felt like everything I learned and felt had disappeared. Like this whole pua thing has become just a shell, and my surroundings have taken control of my inner self, and there was nothing I could do about it. I then started reading body language, and looking a lot into rapport, but I could not comprehend anything. My mind became nothing, it could not hold any information. My thought rate slowed, and even my listening skills faltered. Everything, from cocky funny, to my beliefs about myself, all became nothing. I didn't know what to do -- I felt lost. EVERYTHING I learned just vanished, and everything I worked hard for left me. Anxiety, shyness, bad eye contact, spaciness, bad comebacks, nothing to say, loneliness, procrastination, confusion, ignorance, outside influence, and negativity, it all came back to me. A pua knows how to live life. It is not about just girls, but I feel coming to a point where you are on your death bed smiling, because you KNOW you lived life everyday to the fullest. I felt that, and it felt GREAT. My perception of life was bright and clear. I was becoming the person that I was when I was just a kid, and that is the way we should all be. I always was bettering myself. I am still in a state of afc, but I am trying to make a comeback, and I feel I am gradually doing that.Life has been bad for me that last few months, only because of my inner self, nothing more. I let my surroundings, and my over thinking ruin my life. that was a BIG thing I noticed that I do. I OVER THINK EVERYTHING. I am going to end this self analysis of my rant till tomorrow. I am tired and it is 3:30am. Till then goodnight. I hope to get back in the game, and get some support. Thanks, cool dude |
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