Stop lurking and posting on this forum and FOCUS on finding a job first. If you don't have any self esteem, it's just plain difficult to get laid.

Look. The forum regulars on here workout in gyms; have careers in management, engineering and the academe; have businesses on the side; slay pussy on the regular; and help noobs in here get laid.

You simply have NO EXCUSE not to fix this weak area in your life right now.

Point taken; what is Camtasia Studio, though?

Next year? Why can't you learn video editing now? Get a 30-day Camtasia Studio free trial copy, look at Youtube tutorials, build up your portfolio for the next 30 days, upload your best works on Youtube, and provide links to these on the resumes you send out.

Procrastination and overanalysis will not get you anywhere.

Well, I do go to the gym; I'm a scrawny 150-some pounds. Wasn't able to chin myself properly till about a year-and-a-half ago. Gave myself a bad lower back by hunching over too much in my twenties; I'm now correcting that via copious stretches. I wasn't even able to do a proper push-up till the last couple months, either. I should do more strength training, but it takes money to do a trainer, and I have other priorities.

Got my driver's license at thirty, started learning karate at the same time, and three to four thousand dojo hours later, I'm pretty good, though learning to move my hips was the hardest.

Getting a job, a real job, the first one since college, was a big morale booster, this year. I fought for my job, even though I lost it, and have been filling out forms; was working on three today, for Lowe's, and willi again tomorrow.

When my job was doing well, this summer, I made a real push on video editing, a namely focusing on learning it, while saving for a car, but then my post, which I did well at, and derived some value, ended, and got moved to other places in the store, where I quickly flamed out.

As for video editing, I was focused on using my resources at this local college, but the guy running it thought me too scary, and security kicked out of the campus. Imay be back in January, but that was a setback.

Women. As I've said before, I've had some disasters sarging, but I still read up on it, and think of it, often. I've decided not to focus on it, now, because I've found it too stressful, and kept think what a loser I am in my general life, and that is why I'm now focused on a job, and a trade, as in video editing. Hopefully, in a few months, or so, I will feel like sarging, again with a jo, and a regime in place to learn video editing. Should have done this earlier in my life, to learn something useful to making money, but oh, well.

There's my plan, and I'm working it. Like you, I tried first by getting good with women, get confidence there, but I got campus security called on me for sarging a girl, as in touching her hair (mistake), and later, she saw me on a bus, and called the cops, a couple weeks, later.

For me, I'm not sure now's the right time to get started on building confidence with girls.

Procrastination and overanalysis will not get you anywhere.

Okay; I just spent over four hours today working on on Camtasia, watching many tutorial, googling things, and NOT asking on forums for help--just me, my computer, and an effort to improve--full stop. Got the webcam working; also recorded with the screen cam. Call me a whiner, but that's what I did.

As to hustling, I really do need a certain level of skill as a video editor, really, first. Even if I could, that just wouldn't be moral, but that's what I worked on, and I do mean worked--even as I stretched my lower back out, whilst watching tutorials.