hey fellas just some things id been thinking about
i first heard of the pua community from the game, and it changed the way i percieve everything in life. first off i really realized that im not alone, that there are other guys in the world who just get so f**** frustrated sometimes which intrinsically is nice
what this community and stuff ive been reading lately has really taught me is taht there is a pua in everybody
for all people there is some sort of switch that ,depending on who we are talking to, we either get anxious and "lock up " our real selves, or , like if we are talking to our siblings, we barely even worry about how to act or conduct ourselves.
i saw this in myself by how girls taht i have little interest in, for some "odd"reason ,are crazy for me. now i dont mean literally all girls, but i used to think i had some sort of weird curse where only people who i didnt really care about would end up liking me. what i realized, after reading and finding pua community, was that when i was talking to these people, who it didnt matter whether i liked them or not, the poing is that i didnt care what they thought of me - i was able to be my true self.
what im trying to say here is that with true confidence and good self esteem being yourself is enough. i found that the problem with me was that i was so scared of just being normal that i would put on fronts or fakes, and some girls fell for it, but at the end of the day it didnt give me any sort of accomplishment. game is certainly something, tangible or not, and my point is that everybody has their own style of game. the trick in my mind is being brave enough to show it off - regardless of whehter it fails or not. o and one thing that i have really been trying to internalize is - I am the prize -- not because im so confident, but because i do believe that if i give a girl the ability and ease to get to know me , she will find something great.
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last night i was at an after-party of a formal gathering of sorts I found a potential target I didnt need an opener because some1 we both knew introduced me I was hitting it off with her the coversation started to dwindle and I was tempted to transittion to a routine but she was chatty so i decided to play it out we ended up sharing alot of our aspirations and brief history i thought i was in because she kept hanging around me nd only left when her friends pulled her away i found her later and went for a kiss-close but she backed off telling me she had a boyfriend i gave her a freeze out and moved to other targets i found her later with some other guy i know so she lied to me i got so broken by it i gave up all sarging the worsest part he keeeps bragging about her im breaking down i need help