Hey guys,
I posted a topic 2 weeks ago informing people that I was in a mono-relationship for the first time in 14 months. I am now informing you that since last night I am out of that relationship being the shortest I've had so far.
I didn't post this primarily to merely express that though, I want to include something else. As I said, that was the first mono-relationship I've had in 14 months and weirdly enough it made me feel human again. During those two weeks I've experienced happiness, sadness and most important - insecurity which weirdly enough contradicts my whole alpha image. I don't personally know what it is I just think my brain is hardwired to be a little anxious whenever I'm in a relationship.
Although this wasn't a bad thing, being insecure made me very content indeed. Instead of fearing it I welcomed it and unlike my previous relationships I was able to control it which was the best thing.
Also, now that I've ended the relationship I'm having that "you don't know what you got till it's gone feeling.." -- an emotive feeling inside myself that is wanting her back. However I know this is just temporary and it'll go away soon but point be told, I've never felt this with any other girl in the last 14 months of sarging I thought I was becoming an emotionally challenged individual. I'm so happy that I feel so alive.
And throughout all of this I've learned something, it's improbable that we will find the highest quality of woman if we don't go through quantity. However I've noticed through myself and others that in the process we become trapped in the fallacy that to achieve high quality women we must make quantity our primary goal. Just a thought - wouldn't it make more sense to look for quality over quantity? Quantity has never made me truly happy but quality has and happiness is what I'm searching for here.
By high quality woman I don't mean in a degrading or materialistic way, if it comes across like that I apologize. By quality I mean girls who pass our pre-decided idea of what we look for. I hope that clear things up.
AFCCoffee
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