I've been in the game on / off depends on what I want do. Sometimes I do this kind of thing for a week / month. Gets bored. Goes back to gaming. Gets bored. Do other things that I want for a week / month. Gets bored then goes back to gaming and so on and so fort. Basically this is how my life revolves.
During my 1st month of studying game. I used to be direct robotic. It worked for me at least but I felt that something's lacking. Then I tried MM. It somewhat worked for me, but I feel like it's not me. I don't know how to explain this, but I'll try my best. I want to make the real me come out when gaming women.
This sums up my real personality since I was a kid:
-I'm not shy, I'm confident on things that I would to do.
-If I get to know you and we're click, expect hours of non stop chatting. If we don't click, I won't chat you that much.
-I am artistic, I love to draw, look at artworks and play music.
-I love to compete sports, etc. and I hate losing. Even if i'm on a losing streak I don't quit and I won't stop until I win. For example, playing darts. On a bad day, when I'm on a losing streak I won't stop playing until I win. But when I'm on my good playing day. I'm gonna do my best to embarrass you and show you that I'm the better player.
-I always think that I'm good looking anywhere I go.
-I always think that I'm attractive to girls and girls would instantly have a crush on me.
-I'm not easily impressed to things most people would be impressed with. Like example, some videos on TV/ internet that most people gets impressed easily. I don't.
-I do not easily laugh at things most people would laugh to, Yes I laugh if I find it funny. But most of those, I find it silly.
-If you're not that interesting to me. Go fuck yourself.
-Sometimes, my friends dig some girls for them are hotties. But for me those hotties are average. I have high standards when choosing women. But if I just practice my game. I'd try to practice on average looking women but I become robotic throwing scripted lines. But I get nervous to girls I like
-I'm a perfectionist to things that interests me. But I'm mediocre at things that don't interest me.
-I don't care about other people unless your my relative/my friend. If I saw someone crazy that I don't know who would jump off the rooftop of a tall building. I won't feel a thing. In fact I would love to see that fella jump and see his/her body squashed.
-One time, I saw a motorcycle accident the guy had a blood all over his head and on the streets, And people around the scene where feeling for him. But me I just walk over going to my destination. I didn't feel a thing, didn't care and I also thought that it was awesome. WTF!
-Sometimes when I'm on a train, I'm hoping that the train would derail and fall, but I won't die only minor scratches. Damn! I'm crazy srs.
-I'm an adrenaline junkie.
-I love to have a solitary moment
-I don't enjoy clubbing too much (the reason why I enjoy day game more than night game) but I enjoy going to rock concerts.
-I hate fags, why do they exists (Some of you would curse me for this, but I don't care, It's my opinion.)
-If I don't like you, I tell you straight at your face that I don't like you and I'll ignore you.
-I don't take things emotionally, but logically.
-I think before I act, but sometimes I act first, think later depends on the situation.
-Sometimes I talk firstbefore I think, Sometimes I think before I talk depends on the situation.
-I don't like going with the trend.
-I like doing things my own.
-I like to reason on things that I felt right.
-When I was younger I like breaking rules. It toned down a bit now that I'm in my 20s
-I love being criticized and okay with being praised
-I don't take things seriously, I always entertain my self on whatever I do.
-I love to chill, and I have a laid back personality, I don't stress my self on some lousy matters.
-I'm calm and I don't panic.
-If I'm late for a meet up/school/appointment. So be it, I still walk chill. Never in a hurry.
-I criticize a lot of things that I don't find interesting.
-And... I hate LeBron he's a pussy. MJ's the real king.
Alpha/Beta? Introvert/Extrovert?
What should I do to Improve. I'm willing to change if that's the best for me.