Okay so lately i have been having problems, and it dosent seem clear to me wether it is me who is wrong or the girl...
i have had the best relationship ever, and it is still really good (we talk about being together forever n stuff!)
But for some weeks ago, we had been dating for 2-3 months at that time, and then i saw pictures of ex boyfriend and my girl kissing, due to earlier trauma experience, it was really hard on me... before those pictures, i used to asume the worst, when she wanted to talk i was expecting a break up and when she was kinda closed by some reason, i was expecting her love for me had ended... now it is sort of worse, every time something doesn't go exactly like it does in my head, i get really paranoid and sort of drive my self crazy, like when she is sleeping and i kiss, she then like a reflect turn over and away from me, i then starts to assume she is awake and just dosent want to be kissed ..
funny part is that whenever she thens awakens or if it is another problem and i take it up with her, she then will get close to me and make sure there is no problem, and then i am totally relaxed and the problems dosent seem to bother me anymore... no matter how frustrated and sad i felt...
how do i evolve my self, is it my confidence level? is it because i am to nervous of a break up and just need to get more into other perspectives of my life?
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