My ex has been begging to see me after texting me on hogmanay saying we need to talk about why we broke up etc as we never really spoke about it. Big long texts saying it would be on my shoulders if we never spoke about. I just replied “No chance. Nothing on my shoulders dear, I have some stuff of yours will leave it on your car at your house” until she was begging please saying she’d rather meet me to get it. Now she is a HB9 and amazing in bed so my little man started to do a lot of thinking but didn’t show it over text. Eventually said “Ok come round Sunday”. Being blunt, she came back with “you’re not being nice why should I etc”…….I instantly replied with “I don’t care, you wanted to see me, see you Sunday”. She was ok with that.
Now, I’d love her to beg for me back etc but I know deep down we cannot be together, I’m not going to go into our relationship but it had its ups and downs for 4 years, the downs were bad and she took the piss turning me into a pathetic beta. I’ve sorted this now, raised 6 rides in the month we've been apart, and taken control after she’s gone with NC and blunt replies when she eventually caved. How do I act when she comes round as I’ll be honest, I want to use and abuse her and make her feel silly. Like I did. Although I will probably crumble and fall for her again.
Edit: Thinking about it, I still love and miss her but do not want to show this. I've done this in the past which ahs given her control. How can I have her begging for it.
