Ok so I was obsessed with this girl and a total pushover with her, and she totally took advantage. Would show up late for dates, sometimes re-sched etc etc. I kept putting up with it because she was in medicine and in her last year of residency. Finally on the last date she flaked last minute and my friends forced me to break up with her for my own sake. Anyways, I finally gave her the talk and she acted all cool about it and said she agrees a break is best. Then two weeks later she asks me how I am doing, trying to act all nice. I act very laid back and don't bother to ask how she is doing. Two weeks later she wants to see me. Told her this week is not possible, maybe next week. Now again, texts me asking if I want to grab a drink 'anytime'. I said next two weeks am traveling so maybe when I am back in June. She says ok well if you are free then and have an interest give me a shout. I didn't say anything.

Basically I turned this situation totally around by dumping her first, but the thing I realize is I am quite pissed off at her SPAM of me during the last month we went out. In fact I will say I hate her for it now. Also since her I met way better chicks so she doesn't appeal to me much at all. Just wondering if I should just meet her in my alpha state now just to see if I can fuck her or show her and myself how much I am past that afc chump she was mistreating. Also I think the hatred I feel for her is unhealthy.

I agree that hating her is not productive. It's more like she is a mirror and she is reflecting the afc self that keeps coming out when I fall for a chick.

I guess I should say I hate the fact that I let her turn me into that weakling or turned myself.

All I am saying also is I don't think I can meet her without it reminding me of what a chump I became with her. Whether we could be more than we were if I had been a stronger man, I don't know. Met a girl after her who dumped my ass last week, so I guess I still got some more improvement to do on myself.