Let's get down to the dirt.
Elementary School
Played regular games with the boys and girls. I feel that I was a normal kid except for the fact that I was so shy it was retarded. Eg. I would hold my pee until it hurt, just so I didn't have to raise my hand and get attention
. Fucked. I know.Junior High
I got over the bathroom attention thing although I was still extremely shy/introverted. I managed to get a few girlfriends but no action (you should know that I was raised on the "fact" that girls were evil until I married them and I would be evil if I even looked like I liked them).
High School
I wasn't popular but almost everyone knew me one way or another. I didn't party or anything that might send someone to Hell. I did have dates but not an official girlfriend. I could've gotten laid on prom night (who can't?) but I chose not to. Once again the Hell thing AND my lack of sexual confidence.
College/Life On My Own
Fewer girl relationships and way more alchohol (at some point I abondoned the idea of going to hell or came to terms with it). At that point I was equal parts shy and introvert. I liked my own time (introvert) and I liked being with people but I was always intimidated (shy). I was/am into punk rock so most of my sexual frustration went into getting fucked up and angry at "the man".
Post College
Ok. So I put college on hiatus somehow got a girlfriend AND HAD SEX FOR THE FIRST TIME! Fuck Yeah! I was about 21. It was good first sex too because there was real attraction not just drunk horny after the club sex with a stranger.
NOW
I'm 25. My previous relationship (1st sex) lasted 3 god damn years (some good some bad, you know how it goes) ended bad obviously. That was one and a half years ago. In the mean time I have been working on what the PUA community calls "inner game" and what I call "the tough shit". I still get nervous as hell around females I am attracted to but I swear to you that I will conquer it. Despite the fear, I still try to get the attention of women once in a while. Those times are just few and far between. I had my idea of what women wanted and I can tell you right now, I was way off. So one day I googled it or something found "The Game" and BAM! Here I am. I'll be honest though, getting the information is the easy part for me and most, I'm sure, it's the action I struggle with.
So...
There you have it. My whole story. Thanks for the support, I'll need it after all the blowouts I'm sure will happen.
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