Hi everyone,
Since this seems to be a community, I tought it'd be fair to introduce myself a bit before anything.
I'm 33 years old, living in a small french island people might call paradisiac, and currently work as a photographer (mostly fashion and women photography).
Now, down to what brings me here.
I've been single for over a year now, counting a few "one night stands" during this time.
I used to be really self-confident and never had any troubles picking up women from my 1st experience when I was 19 until... Last year.
But something changed:
For starters, my job. 18 monthes ago, I was actually making good money and living with the confidence that goes with it (feeling dynamic, smart and fun to hang out with, champagne bottles in night clubs, cool clothes, fancy car, nice appartment etc...), but I quit it all, and my girlfriend with it, to try and live my passion and "find my true self", fed up with my salesman life and the faking attitude.
I started to learn photography (by myself) and quickly lost my financial stability, independance and self confidence. Everything that brought me over a hundred relations over the past years (sexual & romantic)
Today, I feel like a child when I see a girl I like, and I can't find anything that could even be interesting to say so to get her attention. I feel kind of "empty".
I think my looks are a little above average, although I'm very tall and thin, I've been said all my life I was smart and wise. Yet here I am, searching for your wisdom eventually.
I started reading a book that got into my hands recently that probably everyone here heard about: The Game. I'm kinda enjoying it so far and thought, why not share my experience if such a community exists.
I often asked myself what could have happened that could make me loose self-esteem so brutally. Was my confidence linked to my financial capacity ? My search for the inner-self, true love and happiness could have broken the myth that I am someone "special" ? I don't know.
Anyway, today, I wanna feel I can please again, and see that look in girls eyes when you know she's melting and dying to go home with you
So yeah, hi guys /
