Hello everyone!
Nice to meet you all. As this is the first time on this forum, I thought it would be better to firstly introduce myself before reading any other topic post. I choose for that to prevent introducing myself in a less realistic way by prejudicing your likely reactions in creating this image of me I want you to have.
Anyways, I'm Rick! I got to know about this website from a friend who I met at another website. He told me about this website and the vision on attracting a more rewarding social life. When I read the vision, I compared it to my vision and saw it was nearly identical. It made me curious to check this website out.
I'm not sure about how much is appreciated to share about me, but even if it could sound selfish of me to write a lot about myself, I can't let that fear of not being accepted rule my life. I must be confident
Anyways, in my life I was told many times I was different from "normal people". That I had a mental disorder that gave me a big disadvantage on the "normal people". I believed in the label they put on me which is called PDD-nos, which presents itself to be exactly "something in the autism spectrum", and it made me to be in a state of always having to proof myself to others to not be that different. Likely this is why I put this many effort in this introduction post.
Most days now, I don't live by my label. I am just me and if you want to judge me, you should judge me for being my self, not the label. I feel like this whole label isn't fitting to the person I am today, I see the reason of the label having been put on me is that I never felt confident in fitting in. Although I do doubt myself on that occasionally.
Anyways, I am content with the social life I have build around me, I have social life where people don't know about my label (My current coworkers and the coworkers from my previous work.) and social life where people do know about my label (Family and the social life around the family, friends.).
I'm living on my own tho, and I do feel like a person is missing here. I am attracted to girls and I silently hope for a relationship build on love. I have difficulty's identifying that person. Sometimes I see a girl that would fit in the image of that person, but never in an environment where I would feel secure to start or participate in conversation with. Even if I participate in a conversation with a girl, I focus on the conversation, not about trying to ask for a date or anything. Maybe this is my autism, but as I try not to live by that, I do want to try and learn how "normal people" deal with this.
For those that didn't read this, I can completely understand that this is quite a bit about me. That's why I am extra thankful for those who did!
Feel free to comment on this introduction!
Rick.