Hey guys, well I've decided I'm making a come back cos I've realised I've lost a lot of social skills and confidence.
I first embraced PUA back in 2004 during the hype of Neil Strauss. This shit changed my life. I'd had 1 girlfriend who left me for reasons I could guess had something to do with me being an unexciting, timid little gimp who was 1 estrogen molecule away from getting my period. Christ knows how I landed her in the fist place, then managed to hold onto her for 4 months.
After discovering PUA, I suddenly felt empowered to change things in my life that I'd taken as being as finite as the laws of gravity. These things that I had just learned to accept. I think I spent every waking hour for the next 4 days reading and consuming; inhaling this new world. That Saturday night I went out with my usual mates, and even to this day, that was the best night of my life. As wanky as it sounds I was looking at the Matrix
I started to have a bit of success with girls. After a few months I actually had sex since breaking up with my ex which was over 18 months earlier (yep, no sex for 18 months, not even the tip
)About 2 years in, I ended up with a new girlfriend who I stayed with for about 4-5 years and broke up. This time, I was the one doing the breaking up. PUA changed my shit in every aspect of my life that I can think of.
Recently I've experienced a few of lifes ups and downs and I guess a lot of it has hit my confidence. I think one of the main things that has made me lose a lot of self-worthiness is that decided to quit a job that I hated and go back to studying full time. The unfortunate side effect of this is that I went from a $60k package to barely scraping above the poverty line, and moving back in with my parents. This is pretty stock standard for students I know, but as a 29 year old man who's already lived out of home, traveled etc, and all my mates are advancing in their lives/careers it's a severe blow to the ego. On the surface I don't let it bother me too much, but I think it has had a negative impact none the less.
Secondly, in equal parts doe to lack of money and lack of life outside of uni, I have become a pretty boring person. I go to uni, come home, study, watch Game of Thrones, sleep, and repeat.
Anyway, this post is a lot longer than I intended. While I'm far from back where I started, I've picked up a fair bit of social anxiety (not just with speaking with girls) and I don't like it. So here I am
