Hello my name is mike but on here it is "Wolvegang" i suffer from total loserness, im 21 have no job and been homeless and now sleep on my father's couch. I suffer from depresion, lets face it how can i not, the only real girlfriend i had disgusted me, the only real job i had was being in the way, cant even respect myself cause its hard to respect the only person i know that wants to kill me. I know my probem and it my social standing in my area. i live in a town of 200 people at most, with one bar full of people who think im trouble and hate me. I sit on a laptop 24/7 besides when i go to drills for the army. I seen this system and read all about it, only problem is i cant do the bootcamps, i owe -144 dollars to my bank and never have over 50 bucks for 2 consecutive weeks. I try my hardest i swear i do but i have bad luck. So what seems to be the ony defense i can fin,d will cost me more money then ill ever be able to optain and then if i got a job ill never have time for bootcamp. just wanted someone to know that this has giving me hope, any ideas how i can find ways to learn this, it will change my world pls help.