I remember the natural (friend of neil strauss) from his book "the game". He had an experience when he was 10-11 with a girl that made him become the fierce seducer that he became.I had kind of a same experience, but somehow, it worked all the way around for me.
I was 9 years old, when next door's girl, kathrin visited me and all of a sudden, started making out with me i was kind of shocked but i reacted passively,(Seems she used on me some kind of a Pua technique).Some minutes later, she put her hand in my pants, that was too much for me, (dont forget i was a 9 yo boy).So i just left. I remember my shelf thinking that i was the only one in the world having made out in such a young age,i was really terryfied.
I retained this passive stance against girls for the rest of my life. Searching for feeling and not for physical connection (guess i always remained kind of scared in the back of my mind). Girls would many times come to me but i would always have that passive and insecure stance (acting unlike a hunter but like a victim)... I remember a girl trying to french kiss me and me getting shocked and experiencing a blackout.Even if girls would say i am beautifull, i never had confidence about myself, maybe because i never really had many experiences to conversate with my friends (which i by myself didnt want tohave) making a fable cyrcle for my confidence...
things got better last year when i found neil strauss book, and started comprehensing and testing techniques. I started to tranceform my personality to a hunter instead of a victim. I am happy to tell u that i make out with at least 1 girl every week (of course i still have a vast way in front of me..) pua is something divine for me
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