Yep, title says it all.. I'm a 17 year old male living in canada about to start my senior year at highschool. The reason I joined PUA is because I miss the times where I had girls, either to talk to, go out with, and of course have sexy time with. I started to withdraw socially nearing the end of grade nine, where I broke up with my first and only girlfriend, and soon enough my friendships started to diminish and I became even more depressed than i already was. I'm still considered 'depressed' by doctors today but I'm slowly getting better and wanting to get back into the life i had more and more. I'm tired of seeing guys with girls downtown having a good time, where me the loner has nobody and it's pretty embarrassing. Right now I can honestly say that I only have two friends, one is an asshole and the other is.. I'm sorry to say it, but kind of a loser, who doesn't do anything and has never even talked to a girl.
I have pretty bad anxiety as it is so approaching girls right now is horrendous for me, it never used to be. I consider myself to be a bit above average looking, luckily i was built naturally muscular but unfortunately I am quite on the skinny side now after being so depressed these past years. The depression really rocked my world, as in I wouldn't even talk to people anymore or try to involve myself in social situations.. I would go home everyday by myself after school and smoke weed until i passed out. It was only recently this summer that I said, this is it, I'm so fucking tired of this bullshit.. I can't live like this anymore because I just cannot take it. So at this moment I find it hard to socialize with girls because I consider myself a loser without any friends, all because I was too depressed so they eventually all started to not hang out with me anymore.
I remember when I did have a girlfriend, it was the happiest time of my life. And then I completely fucked it up, long story short I lost everything because I'm an angry idiot. I want to experience those feelings again, with a girl.. sex or a relationship it doesn't matter, its been 3 years since I've been laid. I'm willing to do and learn anything if it means I can re-obtain that swagger and coolness I used to somehow have. Hopefully this website can help me. Where should i start? and thanks for reading this far.
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