Hi! First of all, I didn't know where to open the topic, so I openned it here. If it's incorrect, feel free to move it.
Well, the bottom line here is that I've been in a situation a few months back with this girl in my course where I've been rejected. And now I'm afraid of it happening again... I'll explain in more detail bellow...
I started my course a few months back, in January. Since then, this girl (let's call her Emma) would look to me in a different way, as far as I could tell (like being in a class and she being almost completely turned backwrds watching me work, holding her head with her hand and giving me a look). I thought she was cute but didn't give it much thought. Later, we went out a couple of times (in a group and alone with each other). A bit later, she came to find out about my feelings for her and came speaking to me about how she's recently got out of a relationship (that's true) and that she wasn't looking for anything back then. As we were in the same course and will be for the next year and a half (assuming we both reach the end) I just became very awkward around her until I decided to start avoiding her at all costs and pulled the plug on her (not a very manly thing to do, I know). Later, I got involved with another girl, from my course also (which I now see as a mistake). That's over now.
And when I thought I was finally cool with most things, Emma starts trying to get close to me again, whether by commenting on a book I'm reading, something on facebook, random things on a group conversation, etc. As she started getting close again, all those feelings came rushing to the surface again.
So, now I'm at a point where I'm wondering why she's trying to get close again. I'd like to think that it'd be because got jealice of the other girl (they don't get along). But I can't help wondering about she getting close again just to get rid of the awkwardness between us.
If it were any other random daily situation where if things went badly I could just get away or something I would just have to put up with it. But here I can't just leave the course and I think she isn't going anywhere any time soon.
So, in the end she's trying to get to me, whatever the reason is and I'm afraid of being rejected again. Well, she didn't really said it the first time, but I think of things like "I just got out of a relationship" or "I'm not looking for anything right now" or "I'm fine with you as long as you don't keep any hopes" as rejections.
Can I do anything to perhaps to things around? Preferably, without going back to how things were between us or worse, if I get rejected again. lol
Thanks, in advance, for the help and sorry for the long post. lol
EDIT: I've been reading some posts and this situation is very similar to mine:
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